Depression got me

I havnt been posting for a while because I have been enduring a bout of anxiety and depression. Still am. I have had some nice moments,  it hasn't been all doom and gloom but it has left me  with no energy and feeling overwhelmed.
On the most excellent side my mum has been told she is cancer free. That is such a HUGE Relief.
I have been attending parent groups for dealing with my children with the new twist of,autism to add to the adhd and probable add. I am learning a lot. It's a great group and well Worth attending.

Friday sees me in London delivering artworks to the mall galleries for an exhibition/competition. Awards night Monday.
All in all everything is going well apart from a few small worries that I am trying to sort out. And also not to worry about! 
I had been neglecting my filofax which added to the anxiety so I am diligently entering everything into it to save the panic checking I usually do. It really helps. I am.using a second hand brown A5 Finsbury right now as my daily diary and I am finding it great,  but heavy. I found a,second hand very scuffed pink personal finsbury on ebay that I may switch to to see if that serves better.

Sorting Out Forty .

Sorting out forty . 

A blog about an unorganised artist with three kids , one with ADHD and Aspergers , two fishtanks , one cat and a husband . 

Hitting forty is a bit of a difficult time  for everyone but I had heard life begins at forty and I am determined that mine will too . A little bit about me . I am an artist , three times winner of the David Shepherd Wildlife artist of the year Wild places award  . I am a mum , daughter , wife , sister , friend and everything that comes with . I also have a collapsing disease /problem , stress , anxiety and depression . My dad died last december from cancer , my mum has beaten cancer twice . It has been a long , hard , exhausting slog . I have been unwell since my teens when my thyroid stopped working . and exhausted ever since . 

So you see why I need to sort things out  , and I will ! 

I started this blog to share how things are going , to motivate myself and to share those things I love . I have started a new healthy eating plan and exercise regime , I am batch cooking , saving money , organising my house and my kids and learning just how good life can be  . 

Here is the good bit . The start of all this change was FILOFAX ! WHY did I never have one before . 

My new Filofax came ! wohoo ! Its a pocket size pink one and its fab . 

I already have a Filofax retro bloom personal that has transformed the way I manage my daily life , a small thing made SUCH a difference . More on my Retro bloom on other posts ,  I just want to share my new baby ! 

I have a Filofax obsession which is  really helping control my depression in a number of ways  , if i have a Filofax I have to find a way to use it ! I use my retro bloom for my day to day diary  , health tracker , things to do etc and my new pink pocket Filo I  am going to use as a holiday planner . Here it is ! 

At the back is a mesh pocket I can use to store train tickets etc when I am actually on holiday . I will take this filo with me , its the perfect size and will have all the info in it I need . 

The best bit . At the front it has credit card slots and a full length pocket

A map too ! I wasn't expecting that as this Filofax was second hand from Ebay .

It includes a today marker /ruler in pink and all the paper in it is pink too because it is the breast cancer awareness Filofax .

I cant resist putting on my new page setup in my Filofax Retro Bloom personal . I love being greeted each day with bright colours , it really helps to keep me smiling and my mood balanced . I will upload a photo in my next blog post of the end of week look when its all full so you can see just how much I love to use it . 

Thanks for following along with me  on my first post  , I hope you follow my blog and follow my journey !

Feel free to leave a comment I would love to hear from you !
Sev :-)